What nights consist of at the house of Mighty Z :
What Momma lays and bed and thinks about:
Is Z breathing weird? I think she is defiantly breathing
weird, I should go check.. (I go and check on Z everything looks good)
I can’t hear Z breathing, I should go and check … (I go and
check everything looks good)
Ugh why is her heart rate sounds so high, I should go and
check... (I go and check everything looks good)
Oh my!! Her heart rate sounds so low; I should go and check…..
(I go and check everything looks good)
I just heard her oxygen level drop; I should go and check...
(Her oxygen is 99%)
I just heard her oxygen level drop again; I should go and check...
(Her oxygen is 98%)
I just heard her oxygen level drop again; I should go and check...
(Her oxygen is 97%)
You know her alarms will go off at 94% oxygen 60% low heart
rate and 160% high heart rate, you don’t need to keep getting up, momma tells
herself.
I just heard her oxygen level drop again; I should go and check...
(Her oxygen is 96%) crap I need to sit
here and watch her oxygen level it might drop to 95% and then I need to start
figuring out what’s going on ……. 30 min later momma again tells herself “ you
know she has alarms that will go off when she needs you ? Right? Momma tells herself... “Sigh, yes I know and so
momma goes back to bed”
Seconds later Z’s alarms go off and up I go to check
on Z, breathing treatment, position change make sure all machines are on
correctly, okay looks like Z needs some
oxygen.
Oxygen is on Z, I stumble to bed exhausted.. Slowly
fading into slumber ….
Daddy starts to snore loudly … I am up again.
Yes, I know I don't need to get up every time,
however I lays there and can’t sleep because of it, I need to make
sure all is well with Z.
Maybe tonight I will tell myself not to get up unless
I hear alarms… (but momma won’t listen to herself)
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