When Mighty Z was born it was very hard to not limit her because of what I saw looking into her hospital crib. Even after the doctors told me there was no hope for my Mighty Z I had a hard time not confining her.
It took me time to grieve for the healthy child I thought I had and to celebrate the child I was given. It is important for me to say that I was not horrified by the child I was given, I was just felt so ill equipped to handle such a medically fragile child.
At the time I felt so isolated and yes confined at having such a responsibility. It took me years to find people like me, to feel like I was not alone in all the feelings that flashed through my mind. The what if's and at times the hope that was not there.The pain that never never goes away.
After I had time to catch my breath and look around. I began to see the perfect angle God had given me. How that God had never left infact HE was the one caring me through this.I began to stand on my own feet and not let what confines me define me., and to never limit Mighty Z by what I saw.
I learned to never give up! To call things that be not as though they are (Romans 4:17) No matter what the circumstances, God has an answer and He will show you the plan when you seek Him (Jer. 33:3).
Amen Shelley! This is good~ There is a light in these special children that takes us out of our confines, and sets us out on an amazing, unimaginable journey that few have the honor to experience!
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