Thursday, May 30, 2013

to the brokenhearted

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

 Psalm 34:18 (NASB)


When the doctors first took Mighty Z to the NICU and I was forced to face that there was something seriously wrong with my baby, this scripture spoke volumes to me.
I was both brokenhearted and crushed in spirit in many ways.  I felt God’s presence during those dark first months of my journey into the world of special needs.  The world of Special Needs is ‘special’; it’s just special in a different way.  It is a slower paced world, a world where faith is something you cling to daily.  It makes you stop and smell the roses; it makes you thankful for inch stones and you don’t worry about those mile stones. 
 It’s a world that shakes your normal world to the core, but it brings a new normal to your life.  Some days you feel HIS presence and some days you feel lost and brokenhearted. That is where Psalms 34:18 has given me comfort.  I go back to that scripture more than anyone knows.
As I looked at my baby during the times that don’t just try the soul but also try the doctors, I knew that even when I feel shattered, brokenhearted, and crushed in spirit, the Lord is near and He has come to save me.  Although I did not want to walk down this path, I know that I am not walking this alone. My Savior is walking right next to me, holding on, not just to me, but to my baby as well.

edited by Emily Minich
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